Saturday, 23 February 2008

• Currently Listening No Name Face By Lifehouse see related

  I always knew that in life you can not rely on anyone but yourself.  I've always been the girl that doesn't trust anyone, because people enjoy screwing you over more than they enjoy helping you through any problem(s) you encounter.

  I give my heart and soul to helping people; i give everything i can plus to make someone else happy.  I can't keep living like this anymore, I can't keep giving everything i've got to get nothing in return. 

  I'm tired of everyone telling me that they "miss me" but ya know what,  you really don't.  Because if you really missed me you would try to make an effort to hang out, or visit, or call or something to show that you do care.  But it's not like that, everything else is always more important.

  My heart honestly can't take much more of this deception.  I'm tired of being let down by the things that mean so much to me.  I distance myself from everyone and nobody even notices, or even cares for that matter.

  The one person i gave everything too decided to throw it all in my face.  He pretty much summed up that i was a complete waste of life, and i never meant anything to him.  I was a good time, I was used over and over again and i made myself believe that he truly did care.  How could anyone ever be so vindictive as he?  What did I ever do to him for him to come back with these words and actions time after time?

  I have no one to talk to about this, everyone thinks i'm over reacting, or it was my fault that i pushed him to be like this.  Why can't I just have that ONE person to vent everything too?  That one person that is there whenever i need them?  I always thought that Jason Frank was my rock, and that he was this person, but it's getting harder and harder to talk to him lately.  I feel like he's even tired of the same shit from me.

  I give up... i truly and honestly do.  I'm not giving my all anymore, because i never get the respect i deserve.  So with this, fuck you all and you know exactly who i'm talking too.  Because reading this, i know most of you all thought that at some point in this blog i was talking about you...

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